head to town to await the beginning of Jin's 24th get together. Finally i managed to get everyone down for dinner. Really not easy to coordinate considering everyone is so busy with their schedule and it make me guilty that i think i am slacking away. the meet up was simple as i am really out of any idea and energy to plan surprise party. So just be clear cut and meet him for his birthday :D
the feast!
our individual pics with the bday boy!
where we ate!
if u go past heeren's mac uncle and see his eyeballs are gone. You Know who to find :p
Happy Birthday Jin!
he supposed to make a wish, but somehow this shot means something else. SURPRISED?? LOL!!
the only shirt left with KAKA still in AC Milan
finally 1 down and with 4 more to go in the coming mths, i am going to start getting my head big soon.
had a chat with mum before leaving for home today, and i guess she seemed super unhappy with the dealing of bro's wedding. i said my piece and perhaps my words are too harsh and she start tearing. Good grief, i am only stating the truth and i really didn't expect such reaction. Anyway, i had always tried to stay out of this cause all along it had never turn out good. But this time round it is unavoidable.
it make me come to think of this: marriage is between 2 person. as long as both party are happy, why bother the rest? However, things are not as simple as that. having traditional customory rules to follow, there are bound to have conflicts and it is best if both families compromise. Again, compromise is not a simple task. And in the end, the couple who are heading for a blissful marriage might end up having a bad start to their new life. all this give me a renewed fear towards marriage. Not that i am having one anytime soon though.
having an elder brother only spell higher expectations. since young, despite it not being told directly, the expectation of me is always higher. from result, to behaviour to anything that can be "compared". i should be used to it, but somehow i am totally unhappy with such treatment. Still, there is little i can do also.
took the bus home and was going past lorong asrama, .68 knoll as we used to call it. A place where i charge up and down frequently before and where i just laid there overlooking in envy ppl sleeping soundly in their comfortable beds at the distant HDB flats. those are the days when i hate what i was doing but now thinking back, the memories is so fresh in my mind.
i got 2 days to decide. this time round i will action first before telling my parents. however, i am still undecided with it. Do i really want to do it till 50? and do i really want to be charging up and down, clearing SOC when i am 30? i know the chance don't come often, but somehow when i got the call from XXX that if i am still passionate, he will arrange an interview for me, i become undecided.
May the coming hours make me more clear of what i want.
As i am writing this, my dear OCS buddy Clifford's bday had passed. gone are the days when he just slept on my bed. But the friendship forged during those testing moments still stayed as we remain like what he said " as gay as ever" LOL!
now is the bday of another good friend, Jin. a happy year for him i guess and though it was a simple dinner, hope he really enjoyed it. time and again, he withstand my nonsense and offered me help. So i guess he got to do it for another year :P LOL!!
i am officially BANKRUPT! i never had a $0 in my bank account before and today i experienced that. So people, if i say 'no' to outings that required spending, pls forgive me. i have 1 mth of tuition fees left to support myself for the next 4 mths. So outings out, mugging YES!
it is week 4 already, and it means, time to hit the books. i shall stop playing my FM and start to be diligent :D
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