i guess with holidays here, i am blogging more and more often. and worst thing is the stuff i blog about become more and more negative. so here is one more negative stuff.

stayed at home and did practically nothing. went tuition and then meet up with luke for dinner.

ok, i shall not blog in proper manner.

i am feeling damn sian.i dunnoe why but it is really super boring.
msg a few ppl to go out and the end result is all negative except for luke.
i don't understand why but i guess it is because of me not meeting this peeps when they asked me out in the past so now i am sort of like getting my 'retribution'.
sianness lead me to find vacation job instead, though i know that my holidays will get by fast but the daily slacking at home and not working or doing things is getting on my nerve.
seriously i am facing mental problem. the daily nthing to do life is making me go crazy and moody. i guess soon i will go into depression.

i shall stop planning outings. i had given up especially when i asked ppl and they will specify a certain group. why can't it be just go if you can or if u cannot then fuck off. why must ask which grp outing? i am fine if u ask got who, specific person is ok but grp? it's like limiting the number of ppl to attend.
anyway, i guess i sounded piss off towards wil2. feel bad that i did that though i am really pissed. but somehow, he hit me at the point when i am already being asked by numerous others.
so wil2, not i aiming u or what, dun feel sad or bad hor. just that u happened to ask at the wrong time.

當你又等待另一天就這樣過去
夜裡又醒來覺得被全世界遺棄
當你不明白為何愛會突然離去
沉默的吶喊聽見的卻只有自己
而當某天某人陪著曾是你的愛
一種莫名的痛驀然侵入揉碎你的心

Baby dry your eyes 雖然愛情讓你哭
也還放不開已經失去的幸福
沒有了期待卻突然更明白
眼前還有必須繼續的未來
Baby dry your eyes 縱然愛情真的苦
心中的悲哀相信有天會結束
沒有了依賴卻看得更明白
已經太疲憊的自己
還是要堅強的自己
如此脆弱卻又真實的存在

sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian
sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian

Wed- No plan
Thur- No plan
Fri- No plan
Sat- Tuition/meet DARE (haven plan)
Sun- No plan
Mon- Badminton/Clementi meeting
Tue- Tuition
Wed- No plan
Thur- No plan
Fri- BBQ

see how many no plan are there? haiz. this is the worst holiday ever. to think just a mth i was thinking it might be the best ever with Germany in sight.

chatted with vincent. he is still going ahead with the trip. june 12 to 22. and here is the list of ppl going: katie, book, hong, ah boy.
haiz, i really bo wei gong. i could have gone with them but now, again i am stuck here. And again, i am being pointed to PS them. i really nthing to say, when did i want to PS when each time i was given the infor so last min. Worst thing is this time round they inform me so early yet becos of the germany thing, i didn't go with them. AND AGAIN I SEEMS to PS them. haiz.
they jio dec, i cannot confirm now and i think wun dare to as well especially when i got FYP in the coming sem, i also do not wish to be PSing them all the time.

Can it be a better holidays?
or can it become better than it is now?

anyway, jin jio sugei buloh and i suggest chek jewa.
i dun mind going. BUT i really given up planning stuff for ppl and it is irritating me each time i got qns asked. So maybe i will plan chek jewa again as i want to go there and have my sleep.

long and naggy, this is what boredom can make someone become.