CNY!

first of all,
HAPPY NIU YEAR TO EVERYONE!!
MOOOOOoooOOooOoo!!

the year of ox had arrived and guess what it is my year!! it had come to 2 cycles! however, it will not be a smooth riding year if what the fortune teller words are to be believed.

anyway, CNY had never being my favourite festive. somehow or rather, i always feel super emo during this period. and this year is not exceptional. Guess everything change when granny passed on. things is nv the same. there is no 12 midnight call to well wish her and the 1/2 hr chat. and of cos the traditional cny visit is oso gone. so personally i am not feeling any better.

went to chinatown tis year.a bit of super no mood to go but i decide not to make mum emo with me so just agreed. Anyway, we left early after i said something unpleasant. she didn't say anything but i believe she must be feeling quite sad. somehow i just wish i didn't mention i want to go home early. Should had continue "ren" and stayed throughout. But i still think my reason is valid. What's the point of squeezing with the ATs to watch the variety show when we can do it at home?

suddenly i wish i have a 时光机, so i can go back to the past and not do things that i have done.
things i am regretting now. things i think i could have done better. things i wish i could have prevented. and in short things that had not been good!

what a way to start OX year eh! by being emo!