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Gloommy tuesday didn't came. or should i say it is not as glommy as i expected.

result was out. improvement. Finally i had no donkeys as a pet this time round. However i am still not feeling good. certainly there is one mod which i feel i deserve a better grade but as there is something called KARMA! i got a result i don't deserve last sem, so now i just pay back with one that i put in more effort. Anyway, i didn't want to blog immediately after the result release is because i feel sore abt it. but after a sleepless night and long period of self reflection, i guess i got to live with it.

BBQ went on fine though it is still far from my expectation. Seriously i got to lower my expectation, especially when it is not easy to fulfil my sky high dream. thanks alot to those who came. really appreciate that you guys came.

throughout the 2 hr sitting alone at the pit guarding the food. i unexpectedly realised how much i can do when i wan to fulfil something. the long walk from sch to the pit with a heavy load of dispenser, 3 carton of newater and of course various cultery, the 80 water bombs that i made by filling the dispenser from the toilet with the fear of losing things that i left unattended. personally, i find it a sense of achievement especially when there is another grp of ppl at the nxt pit having fun while i sit there alone filling the bombs. At the end of it, though it is nothing compared to tougher time in the past, i believe i had this top of the world feeling when the 4 teens who came truely enjoy the evening.

i had always lacked in presentation skills. something that had been exposed time and again. only this time round, i feel it hurt me more. it does pay to keep quiet despite knowing more of the stuff.

I shall forget what had gone wrong and continue to improve. I want that A that had eluded me this sem though i feel i deserve it too. Next sem i shall do better. I am not going to let one setback destroy my dream. A far fletched dream but one that is achievable if i put in enough effort like this sem. 3 more 0.2 improvement and i can get the min. i wan!

It's festive time! i shall had fun and loads of it to mask the disappointment i am currently in.

anyway, thank to those who do ask me what wrong. really appreciate the concern though i refuse to reveal anything.

Have a great "ping an ye"
and
MERRY X'MAS