Another weekend!!

one more weekend had arrived!! and it only mean one more wks less to exam! i am feeling the heat now despite the fact that i had always been 'bo chup' abt my results. Seriously, this sem i am putting a bit more pressure on myself to work towards greater result. Perhaps it is the influence of successful ppl around me. Seeing them juggling work, sch, r/s and other personal commitment with ease and still getting excellent result do make me reflect on myself. I nv believe i am stupid but i do think that i am just plain lazy to put in effort. Which is why despite some regular studying this sem, i am still thinking it is not enough! Got to work harder!!

Anyway, the past 2 days was hectic, esp thur.
Sch start at 9, end at 3 and then off to tuition before rushing back to sch for Prof meeting. I thought nothing will come true when z say that 188 got high tendency to break down. SAD TO SAY, it came true. Just like how Jin said on sat that prof meeting will be changed to thur. Haiz, good things nv happen for me but the 'suay' one just keep coming. Anyway had prof meeting. I seriously got nothing to say except that i forsee a hectic week ahead.
After the meeting, rush to IMM to meet sis and luke for dinner. Supposed to be 8 but i reached at 930. Seriously, i wanted to cancel it, but somehow i decided that it is not nice. Anyway, after a rushing here and there, my head became heavy and somehow i cannot think much. LOL! after dinner, went to JEC mac for some chit chat.
Saw '41' recs who are having their nights out. 2 months to their ORD, a recon 2a holder. though i am not their Atec PC, however, to hear them get such wonderful result, i feel super honoured to be once part of them. Really glad to see them. and even happier that they invited me to their ORD parade. 'Ah Bengs' once but i see the changes in them. The only batch that make me feel MORE commanding than the rest. Perhaps it is because of what they used to say: 'Even if you do ask us to die, we will willingly do it.' Something i thought only will be told in band of brothers, but no one can truly know how true they are to their words since we are not in war.
after some chit chat, the 3 of us left for home and I carried a heavy head plus weary mind to bed.

Another round of early waking. i realised that despite the tiredness, when i seriously wanted to wake up i really can. HAHA. woke up earlier than usual and went to sch for lab. after lab, head to GAW party at GO. it was more of seeing the kids reaction than interacting with them. Really glad to see the smiles on the kids' faces. It really makes u feel that volunteering is meaningful.
going to celebrate the so call surprise party, but after Kahu noe abt it, we decided to change plan. So instead of heading to IMM after GAW together, Kahu pretended that they all got their own stuff and left. So i was left with wil2 and now we need to wait for U coy guys. Without much choices of time delaying, i decided to "open up" my house and let wil2 come up. Wat a big sacrifice, after 23 yrs, this is the first time a friend of mine enter my house. but watever it is, he just check his email, while i took a little rest. after much delaying, we headed off to JEC to meet the 2 Jons. Had KFC as i cannot control the hunger and wanting to reduce wil2 burden of the dinner cost later. Afterall he treated us last yr on his celebration, so i guess he will do the same this yr too. After much delay, we finally entered swensens @ imm and Surprise wil2 with half the KAHU there. LOL! Anyway, the whole thing went smoothly. after dinner and some chit chat, we headed home.

the whole event is great, but somehow i am not happy with it. i guess i am setting my standard too high. I believe the whole surprise thing could be even better. But i got no one to blame but myself as i refused to do anything until the very last mins. Seriously, the whole event would not have been successful if not for HX change of plan. So really got to thank her.

I am tired, mentally and physically. i am going to take a break from everything this sunday. Give myself a break from all stuff and just sweat it out. I need a run badly but my knees had not been kind to me. How i wish I can 'fly' like the past? A good 2 hr run will be a great!!