whooowheeez!!!

back back back!!
haha. the past 2 days are terrible. cos i dun have internet access. My stupid com had already let me down by taking 1 hr to start up every time and when my modem just didn't perform its duty, i nearly go crazy. finally after 1 hr of "emergency operation" together with that Singtel guy, i manage to restore back my connection. Guess i not that computer idiot after all since that "supposed to be good in IT" singtel guy needs me to tell him how to connect that modem. -___-""

a bit of flashback for the past 2 days. ( long long story. wahaha u've been warned.)

tue:
went for GAW at grace orchard. SW and "disturber" went as well and i am quite surprised to see the other side of them. the event was damn fun and playing the games with those kids really brightened up my day. got to know a few of the kids and i just realised one of them lived just opposite block of mine.
went for befriending meeting at night and co-chair the first meeting for the new committee. everything went well except for a few sudden "surprises" changes which was not discussed earlier but they are just minor stuff. Luke and Kit, the "lau ren" also went and was glad that they are there to assist us in some of the explanation. But as usual, whenever i speak "ang mo", there will be "spears shooting back at me" by our luke. Can't wait for the new befriending session to begin next week.
didn't manage to "LBS" with the other 3 ppl at night due to my connection letdown. but guess will do it tonight. wahaha.

Wed: Sentosa. woo, finally sun, sand and sea. was quite happy that i went. manage to tan abit and though not the colour i wanted but it is still halfway there. went vivo to have dinner before gathering on at the roof garden to play our usual games.

alright, events done. time to emo. on tue, though i am happy and delighted with the kids and the fun i get mixing with them, i do feel disappointed. i guess most of the disappointment is on myself. Json and a few others do sense it and they asked but as usual, i do not like to say much.
was quite pissed actually that ppl say things one way and act the other so when the person did turned up the next day i do feel irritated. but, i don't stay angry for long and at the end of the day i guess i am just too sensitive.

while having dinner at vivo, were toking about movie date and somehow the topic changed to me meeting accidents and stuff. i do agree that maybe it's time to exchange home number with some of my friends cos i do agree that if i do meet with any mishaps or worst case of death, my friends might not have realised it. Not that my absence will be felt though.

vin called for dinner on fri, i just say that i will confirm at a later time and somehow he was quite disappointed in me. i don't what to do or what i want. though it is just a few hours away, i dun feel especially delighted like the past yrs. guess i brought this upon myself since i am delaying in making plans and stuff and when ppl do plan for me, i just didn't want to confirm my attendance. All i can say is, i appreciate all the efforts. but i am hoping for the right companion and the right activities on my 'one yr once' day. to vin, if u do read this: i don't want to go cos i don't like the ppl you asked along, some of them i am not even close to or know their name. furthermore, i DON'T want to Drink which is what you all intend to do.
guess i will do what was sang in landy wen lan's song.

一個人坐在空盪包廂裡面　手機　讓它休息一夜
難　像切歌切掉回憶的畫面　眼淚不能流過十二點

emo-ing away.