in sch "mugging" hard!

woke up damn early just to be in sch for the project meeting. and it turn out to be quite nice :)
been a long long time since i woke up at like 6am and breathing in the fresh morning air just set everything right. (tml will be another early morning again.)

it really take lots of discipline to take special sem especially when all your friends are holidaying and you are there studying. actually i am quite pissed with some though, mentioned that i am having a term test and yet they keep asking me out. CANNOT understand what is term test????
alright i admit i am not that discipline too. been FBing, FMing, PESing as well as taking unnecessary breaks in between and i just realised i got less than 20 hrs to read through the 20++ chapters of the textbook. really regret not buying the book earlier as it is much more useful than the lecturer.

TML i'm going out again. :( no choice since jon book me like days ago before the term test is being pushed back till mon. so now i got lesser mugging time. On the bright side, we are going to have great fun shooting paintball. LONG 4, Face Mask, 100 Colour Pellets, One Rifle. 8 members, 2 teams, 1 common target, and like what Javier and I had discuss for days, we shall GIVE HIM a GOOD TIME! 200 pellets ALL ON HIM! :)
but seriously Javier, you should just go bang the wall :P

someone view my blog from New Jersey, US. and i really wonder who is he or she since this person had been doing it for the past few days.?????? the first person who came to my mind is XY, but she is in NY now. argh, wonder why so many "intruders"?

Zsa2 is 19 loh.. omg, so fast!! and it only mean i am getting older :( the crazy girl's bday just passed and i guess the last time we met was last yr? omg, that is a long time of not meeting up esp when we are cousins who lived in the same country. -_-"

i am being invited to a particular event which i am not supposed to be involved in since i don't come from the particular sch.( cos the organiser and most ppl are from the same pri sch?) Really make me wonder what happen if i didn't fare badly for my PSLE. perhaps we are all together happily in the same sec sch and who knows what will happen to my life eh. actually there is no point thinking of it since we had all grown up and nothing can be changed.

i can tell the unhappiness or vexed or whatever you called it except for HAPPY, but trying to be happy when you are not is a difficult thing to do. So despite saying that "I'm ok, feeling good, feeling happy", i know you're not. Just try to look at the bright side eh. at least you still got your good buddies around you to cheer you up :P (i am trying to say me. LOL!!)

certain words or sentences can be scary, REAL SCARY. it's really how you interpret them and wonder what they are meant. I am clueless and really quite lost about what it mean and the people involved refuse to take it seriously. SERIOUSLY, i am sure something bad is going to happen. AND I AM NEVER WRONG IN SUCH BAD STUFF :(

saw so many ppl graduating and had their commencement. Nxt yr it will be mine (hopefully!) but i suddenly wish i could restart my uni, or at least let me redo my yr 1! hate to see the transcript and the scroll which includes all the "Cats and Donkeys". it is really very saddening and i can only say 早知今日,何必當初?

haiz... haiz... haiz...

so right now the least i should do is stop bloggin and hit the books again and try salvage whatever can be salvage. :)