Mon-

Badminton! finally had a badminton session. got wen min, some kahu, Weiying and jason. wen min came early and we had a tiring game before the rest finally came. i lost to wen min in our battle! haiz, so sad cos it was really a bad game.

went over to raffles shuduko for the clementi outing cum meeting. the attendance is not good but i had nothing left to comment on.

i failed to book the west coast bbq pit.

Tue-

super tired but still went to SPGG for the swim. damn shiok and the 3 of us went to the jacuzzi and steam room too. after which, we went for bowling. first game: SW won. Second game: Wil2 won. Last Game: I won. seems like quite even out. i am bowling an average of 100! Damn bad. haha!

went to FC6 for lunch and OMG, i feel so old there with the whole grp of poly students. I still like poly. the table beside us consist of a group of students and they shouted FUCK YOU and it is really so poly as no one really bothered by them. i think if it is NUS, one F word and you will receive a few stares (personal experiences). Are Uni students more refined? NAH! they just think they are by not scolding vulgarity. I still think what xiao bai said before is quite true. If i was to act so civilised and not scold vulgarity, i better not mixed with him. HAHA!
anyway, what i am saying is, there is nthing wrong with vulgarity! but of cos not using it sparingly in every sentence. anyway it will be so NOT ME if i really do not use vulgarity.

went woodlands to meet mortal and sis for gelare. slept at lib and was awaken by the librian.

tuition and yes, the more i teach marcus the more i enjoy it. and i can tell he is so attached to me.

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wilson planning a sentosa outing. So shiok. finally i get to meet my SAF "brothers" and then while chatting on MSN, i came to know of a shocking news. I really looking forward to it. As well as the one he say he will plan in AUG :p

Weiyen planning sentosa outing too. But it will be my BMTC commanders. YEAH!! second happiness cos it is super long since we last met. I am really looking forward to it.

I guess i am feeling damn sian now. i just wish i didn't make such a stupid suggestion but whatever it is, once it is over. i will damn glad and i promise myself it shall be the last time i will do it again. now all i can do is just pretend i am enjoying it.

it is not supposed to be in this way, but somehow or rather i feel it is not really right. All i can say is it is complicated. i am told to be more understanding but rather than doing it. i am feeling vexed over it. Babe told me 6 mths is the way to tell, it is soon to be 6 mths! and i am feeling something wrong alrdy.

i am not so forgetful usually but this time round i "failed to remember" to book the Pit not once but thrice. actually i know of the real reason for my "forgetfulness". still for the forth time, i book but at a different place.

i still think i should spend more time with my old grps of friends. i feel more relaxed, more myself. And i have no worries abt what i can do, must do, will do. even sitting there whole day staring at each other seems good enough.

time supposed to bring us closer, but i feel the distance had not decreased but increased instead.

someone told me something and i decided to see if it is true. Up till now i am still unsure and it really make me begin to distance myself from ppl.

i really dun understand why i am making things difficult for myself. maybe if i said out why to ppl, they will understand and the problems will be solved or maybe not?

I am expecting more from myself. come fri, i shall feel disappointed once more cos i believe that i will never achieve what i set out to do.

i have time, do you?

i feel really bad to some ppl. Just becos i am frustrated, i always vent my anger on them. And for nothing they get being scolded upon and they really think they are the one who make me angry. seriously they are usually the one who never make me angry but one who receive the end result of my frustration.

i don't like to say please, sorry and thank you unless it is a must. so if you don't want to be help, or just want to hear some nice word from me, then too bad, i shall do it myself. I will only say please and thank you because i have no choice but to accept your help.
As for sorry, it will be even harder unless it is really my intentional fault and i know it.

Everyone got their 心事, but not everyone express them out. i guess no matter how strong one appears to be, there is always a soft side of them.

i end today post with this:

“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours – it is an amazing journey – and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.”
—
Bob Moawad