weekend gone. totally spent on studying. really discipline in my point of view.

i realised this sem is a fuck up sem. things are not going well. i just wish that there are things that can be done a lot better.

ended the week with a 1 hr plus exercise and damn, i nearly die. even though i had been hitting a consistent 10 mins 5s but when it come to running under the sun, i suffered and the timing dropped to a terrible 10 mins 40. though it make no diff in term of award but i still need to work better. No wonder i am always total 90 during soccer. disappointing.

people did things without thinking. when questioned, they denied; people thought they did the right things. when corrected they insisted their stand. grown tired of such life but let's face it, it is reality.

begin the brand new wk by waking up early. breakfast with mortal and sis. then went to study before the lesson begins. after lesson headed to settle some stuff while waiting for xy to pick me up. headed to this ulu place at bonua vista for dinner. xh came too and guess the tennis game did the trick :) after which, headed home and another round of intense study. and before i know it, another day had ended just like this. :(

recently had this note in FB whereby i get ppl to write abt me! some hightlight:
(the bold is the qn and the follow up is the answers from numerous ppl, follow by my remarks.)

Your first impression of me upon meeting/seeing me?
FIERCE! I didn't dare to talk to you sia;Difficult to approach;Wah~! Damn fierce sial.. I scared.

seriously, i dun understand why people think i am fierce. LOL! i am so harmless unless you "step on my tail". even so, i am not as fierce now than previous.

Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else(what)?
Idiot;Fierce and Loud.

so interesting. but nothing to say.

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?
Idiot; lumpy; xiao kia

this is what ppl had called me from the current one to poly and to sec sch. seems like nothing good. actually being called an idiot is nothing bad. After all, in jin yong stories, all the character who are idiot- like are all the super ZAI one, example: Guo Jing.

anyway, all those who replied are my good friends, so seriously even though their answers are so hurting :( i don't take it to heart, afterall they are all nice people to be with :)

I am so accurate with my "six sense". the msg which was mistaken as a virus by sk was proven to be a non virus msg. Haiz. i missed the chance so i need to create it myself. and tataa, yeah :)

decision is made by myself. I never let anything sway my decision making. afterall i decided long ago and shall not regret. So do not feel sad for something that did not happen.

i had kind of given up hope waiting for a lost cause. Mexico seems to be impossible now despite not receiving any rejection mail yet. Anyway, i shall redraw my plan again. A major mistake made is to have no backup plan for it. Holiday job? Vacations? or just stay away from people?

seriously, i am growing more anti social than normal. this is to prevent wagging tongues as well as to feel less fed up with others. i don't wish to blame on others but to find fault with myself that i am the cause of all problems. Shall stick to my "老朋友" who had been with me for long :)

Stress level UPPed! despite the healthy medical report, the only blackmark is the blood pressure. soon, i am in the zone of hypertension. shall control and be less stress up. shall find time each wk to have the "me" time.

i shall end here as i promised myself to sleep by 12 each night. another day shall begin and this routine life is making me sick and tired.

P.S, i am contemplating signing on again. This time round i shall go back to my own trade.
Infantry Officer: To Lead, To Excel, To Overcome.