STAND BACK!

damn sian and tired.
somehow or rather i am feeling so weak in doing things.

missed the meeting and went to meet XY after counting the donation. had a little chat and as usual the topic will revolve around her. I know there is no return now as even myself is unwilling to give in. Call it stubborn but it is how thing work.

i like to thank all my friends who had donated generously over the past 2 days for the donation drive. really grateful to them and even though i got to admit i had been a bad friend who forgot some of their names. Once again, really thankful to all of you for the support :)

dec 19 seems like a long long time away but somehow 2 group of ppl had already plan something for it. First is my Brother. he is getting married on that day which means i had to be present too! Second is my OCS Wing buddies. it is 19th dec 2005 that we entered OCS Hotel wing so it is appropriate to gather on that day though nothing is confirmed yet.
Haiz what a date to choose!

i had my reason for doing certain things. i don't think i need to report to anyone what i am doing, neither do i need any of your comment. In simpler words, MIND YOUR OWN PROBLEM!
it make me even sad that the person who commented is someone who is close. such a disappointment.

tml is the last day of internal drive. soon i will fully withdraw from any event by the main club. i had seen enough and it make me understand how things are run. there is only 2 ways to the outcome: stay and suffer in the system or just exclude myself from everything. i decide to choose the latter. but still i am glad that i had this experience which i think can be very valuable in "opening my eyes and see around"

i remembered a conversation with certain ppl. Uni ppl think a lot and thus is more defensive. I got to admit i think alot but i'm not sure if i am defensive.
certain ppl can be played joke upon and certain ppl can't. for me, i am fine with being the butt of certain ppl jokes but not all. i am unsure what is wrong but somehow i find it offending for ppl to comment on certain stuff. Use your own fucking brain before u crack the joke. Of cos i won't look unhappy but that doesn't mean i am pleased to be your clown!

how to know i am feeling low? watch 3 esp of "la bi xiao xin" and didn't even laugh a single bit. I am indeed feeling very low!

without realising, i had already slipped into my annual "moody" period. i managed to pull myself out of it fast last year, but do i have the strength to do it this year?