thoughts!

thurs
2D drawings done. including those minor tweaks. ended sch at 3 and decided to head home to rest. wrapped up 2 presents. had a little nap and headed to IMM to meet up with luke, chantal and wilson for luke birthday celebration. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUKE!!!

fri
went jjc to pass sop her present. so ps to wait there as there was a stream of students walking past. anyway, she is going to have friendly match so we didn't chat long. went to JP hoping to get the stuff but somehow that screw up uncle didn't open on time and ended up i had to take a cab to rush to sch. Kahu met up to do the diary things. i didn't intent to help so i wasn't prepared to go but somehow i ended up going there and though i still didn't help, at least i managed to complete my slides. headed to yishun camp comm meeting. very friendly bunch and though sis thought i might feel uncomfortable, i am perfectly fine with them. wanted to get xy out for dinner since i haven had mine but i had forgotten that she is ATTACHED, so i ended up 'ta bao' home. now it seems like my late night kaki is gone. haiz, so sad.

i am feeling easily tired as the time go by. i know it is not the problem with sleep as i used to have lesser sleep than now and still don't feel tired. So i guess it might have something to do with it, especially the frequency had increase. i just want to pretend nothing had happened. perhaps when it comes, it will really come.

it is weird when the feeling is known. things just doesn't seems like the past

kahu was discussing abt the happening in the camp but somehow while sitting alone at another table. i just can't seems to remember anything from e5. perhaps, it is like what i had told xy, this is the only camp that didn't leave any memorable memories for me, despite the fact i know a grp of fun ppl and 3 of whom i am close with.

devastated, disgusted. i always find reasons to blame myself first before i find fault with others. this time round i am not going to do it. how could i spent so much effort teaching marcus and he still can get such pathetic result. worst thing is all the questions he got wrong are those i went through with him the day before. he definitely is one of my worst student ever. NVM. i will drill him on and on in dec. let's spent my dec shaping him up for his first major hurdle next yr.

i am disappointed with some ppl, certainly they had forgotten others but i just feel it is not right to do what they are doing. which is why i just feel i should give the activities a miss. one of the others oso dun feel like going. i understand how he feel cos i tried putting myself in his shoe.

time to put any other stuff aside. I should just concentrate on my studies now. the rest are distraction!!!!!

18 days to D day.
26 days to Freedom.
48 days to a white christmas. (may sharapova come again and end my year with a bang!)