sianz sianz sianz..

alright, got a test tml and yet here i am blogging away. i believe i did what i could. studied the past 2 hrs since i came back from tuition. and i already can't absorb anymore. yet i am not tired enough to sleep.

guess i am having problem sleeping recently. i am not a well known owl. yet the time i fall asleep is 3 plus am when everyone is deep in their dream land. and when i finally reach my dream land, i got 2 "loudhailer" talking and disturbing me. Yes, i meant both my parents. ok. they didn't talk as loud as me. but it is loud during the early morning of 5 am when even a needle drop is LOUD. so i ended up waking up feeling irritated. and guess what, i snap off today, and the victim- my mum. i should not have talk back but i believe the cause begin with her. Since she start talking to him again after what happen the previous time, i got problem going back home. ok. maybe i am just feel with hatred but seriously i guess the whole world can forgive but not me.

i reach home today hoping to get a cool bath after a hot morning and GUESS WHAT??? my block have our water supply cut off due to some maintainence and i ended up unable to get the cool bath i want. haiz.

feeling a bit sianz. notes, books. haiz. and i feeling a bit of nervousness now with my tp just 1 wk away. got to say no one is pressurising me but myself. Not that failing is a BIG thing but seriously i want to pass once and for all. i can NV accept failure ( ok, except when test but not for major exam) so if i do fail my tp i bet i will feel very very low. but if i pass, it will be a different story. Seriously speaking i see TP as an more important thing right now than any other stuff. maybe because i am paying it myself and the pain of spending so much and fail is unbearable. lol. all of this failing. PUI.. y am i so negative today?? guess it must be the 3-4 hr of sleep per day that make me grumpy and having negative thoughts.

one good news. MAN U WON and i bet they will go through nxt round and meet Barcelona as i predicted. hmm, i am feeling that only soccer and driving and maybe even tuition is keeping me going. Doing things you like is what keep a person alive. Now other than talking soccer and playing, teaching people and driving, nothing is giving me life.
how i wish i didn't reject MOE offer. haiz.

driving license i hope to get and if i succeed, german classes is nxt. tat is Jin "jie jie" jio one. hope he can find a cheap and good language centre. lol. i am getting poorer but more enriched with new skills. LOL.