just rotting away!!!

BORED..
spend the dae looking thru the notes..
and actually half the time is dae dreaming...
i just can't get anything into my head..
argh..
it's not that i still thinking of army..
though partially yes.. (sundae.. book in dae.. wat i have done for the past 2 yrs.. dun expect m to get over it so soooon....)
but there something else in my mind..
haiz..
y did i have to go thru tis again.. argh..
the mind is spinning... round and round...
make mi going nuts..
i trying my best to block it out..
to block it out totally just to concentrate on studying..
but it's useless..
argh...
if it's in camp..
jon will be there listening... to mi crapping off..
but now it's just mi and mi alone to go thru it...
i need to meditate..
to keep myself calm..

meditating away..........
calmness..is an art...