to the RECs...of 02/07

nthing to do..
chatting with sophia on msn..
she reply slow sia..
so i just type in my second post in 2 hrs..

read thru one of my guys blog..
quite interesting..
i think the image we portray to the rec in camp is hard to shed off.. when we r outside..
ok..
we r human..
we behave differently in camp and outside..
or should i sae during work and off work..
we have our own life.. and we r no difference from anyone..

the only diff in camp.. is.. i am ur superior..
like i told them... i may be ur superior in camp due to the training i have..
but once outside.. u might be superior in other things than mi..

can tell that some still find NS a chore..
but i hope that they will find themselves learning something at the end of the 2 yrs...
its quite rewarding if u were to ask mi..
yes... some of the things might not be done right..
but we r all humans..
we made mistakes..
and we might punish wrongly..
but if we realised it..
i hope we will apologise or even admit it..
i think i did it.. in the case kumar's..
its not about pride.. but abt the morale courage to admit u r wrong and bring urself to the level of admitting..

cleaning the area is tough.. i got to admit..
i nv like area cleaning..
and even when i inspect i nv really go and be very strict till i expect no dust..
i clean the platoon TOILET myself just 1 dae before the enlistment.. so i noe how it feel..
and my commanders clean the bunk of their own sections...
the reason y we might be so strict is becos we hope u all live in an environment that is clean and fresh..

all the things we ask u all do have reasons..
some of u find it unreasonable cos u all dun understand the reasons..
and i dare sae.. rec being rec.. they will just keep quiet and do. only ranting away when commanders not around.. but do u all bother to find out why...

as i sae..
u guys r PES C.. there r certain things we can let u all do..
so the physical trainning is limited..
if u ask mi.. its a waste of my time conducting for u all.. cos i haven even sweat..
half the platoon is down.. when i increase the frequency/ spped.. 3/4 cannt catch up..
resulting mi to slow down again..
so i will sae the training is more of a fun and bonding session than a work out session..

true colors of the commanders no need to be shown after the confinement wk..
y do we need to hide??
cos we scare u all might complain?
like i always sae.. if u all think that wat i did or my commanders did is wrong..
go ahead.. N' complain.. u guys have the numbers.. but i dare sae.. with my head as a gurantee that we follow the R & R..
the dae i get that kit kat.. i already prep for my head to be "chopped" anytime..

to bond with a grp of 50 plus guys is hard.. harder for mi since i hate to interact.. even after two batches.. but its importantly for mi to noe u all individually.. to "protect" u guys from any "missle"
if i stay angry with u guys once u guys made a mistakes...
den i will be crazy... y shorten my lifespan with u recs.. lol..

one thing i wan u all to noe..
"RANK IS WHAT U WEAR, RESPECT IS WHAT U EARN"
if i can get u guys to do things willingly and ur respect for mi..
i had succeeded..
but if i din.. i think my 38wks has been wasted..

now for some personnal notes..
i do have my prob..
IPPT.. nxt wk.. silver first.. to beat the promotion dateline..
and GOLD to confirm my fitness status..
should not be a problem.. if i continue my training programm..
3 more kg to lose..
after 4 wks.. i lost 2kg..
haiz.. and time to work harder...

uni gonna begin in 2 mths time..
i have replace all my aero stuff with infantry stuff..
need to regain some basic knowledge..
so as to kickstart my final leg of "paper chase"

finance side is going to get tight.. in 3 mths time..
with a mthly $200 of insurance to pay plus $100 of other bills..
and no income.. i will suffer.. how i wish i am from a rich family.. (just joking.. i'm fine with where i born.. and extremely happy with wat i have..)
part time job??? anyone got lobangs???
or any sugar mummy????? lol..

69 daes.. i hope it will happen...
hopefully it will be BIG for once..
like wat was promise by them.. lol..

as always.. i just shitting away here..
hoping for the unrealistic..

P.S. i hoping for some miracle this near future....